I can hear the pops and explosions of folks who can't wait 'til midnight. It makes me happy in the same way that home Christmas light displays do. It seems to shout, "Isn't this fun?! Isn't life good?! I love you neighbors!" all up and down the street. So darned friendly and connected and communal. Yep, I like it.
My kids are all nestled down, cuddling with their dinosaurs they bought with tooth fairy money and Ariel dolls and tinker toys canisters. I want to remember that that is what they were holding when they saw 2012 in - even though they have no idea what 2012, a new year, yesterday or tomorrow means exactly. I hope in 2042 they are all holding their best friend on New Years Eve. Darn, I hope I'm holding my best friend in 2042. But I hope 2042 takes a really, really long time to come because as crazy as it may be here some days, I really am enjoying this part of my life. Little Linebacker tells me he loves me a lot, maybe that's making the difference. Well and CPT Kindergarten is so earnestly trying to do better ("I didn't say 'hate' this time Mom. I just about kind of said it but then I didn't. I said 'I didn't like,' pretty good huh Mom?" Whew, just about breaks my heart the pure sincerity of it). And the Sidekick Sister and her outsized personality twirling in her ballerina dress she would rather never take off. All of that, all of it makes the difference I suppose.
So here's what I want to do with 2012: I want to run a marathon faster than 3:10 (scares me to declare it, but so I do), I want to write a short story (just one, that's all I'm asking of myself, there should be time for that), I want to laugh with my kids more and think that I'll do it once I get the laundry done less, I want to laugh really hard with my at-home spouse, I want to continue my journey with the Old Testament (what a book - holy mackerel, quite a read), and I want to have the best vacation ever of all times when we hit Colorado and Utah this summer (we are all geekishly excited over here to be home, home, home for a bit).
Happy New Year everybody. If you're reading this, I'm positive I love you and I hope you get all you want out of 2012.
3 comments:
I hope the new year brings you your stay-at-home spouse. After spending a week with my daughter, her new baby and her stay-at-home spouse, i don't see how you managed with your four under five...you my friend, are super mom. Bravo!
And we are positive we love you.
Thank you V. I'm more of a Super Crazy Mom than a Super Mom, but thank you (:
Mom - I am grateful that I am positive that you are positive that you love me.
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